| | Alright, well I'm blogging again. I don't really have anything specific but whatever. So... I'm in love with the song 'Remember when' by Alan Jackson (from the Notebook?) its so beautiful! And 'The greatest story ever told' sung by Oliver James is so incredible! And he is so amazingly good looking. Anyways, lately I've been feeling kind of melancholy. I don't really feel like I fit in with anyone right now. Everyone is so busy & so different its weird. I mean basically the only friend I see outside of school is Brittany which, don't get me wrong, I'm so happy about but I really miss seeing other people. It seems like whenever I make plans they're canceled last minute or something goes wrong or I don't even get to make plans because people are so busy. It'll be especially more so once I start working more again. 3-4 shifts a week on Sundays, Mondays and Fridays. So I will only have Saturday free on the weekend and once basketball starts I won't have any week days free except possibly Thursday right after school. I just don't know what to think about that. Not to mention this whole idea of getting out their specifically to meet new guys. I think I'm going to wait until the new year at least though. if I happen to find an awesome guy before that great for me. But if not then well then I'll put myself out there I guess. Or at least get outside more. I mean how many people can I meet just hanging out with the people I know now at school & at work? I kind of need a life. >.< Everything is so different this year with so many different people. I find that now I kind of miss Rhea. A lot in a way. I can't really explain why, I mean we are close friends but its something different then that, I don't understand it because she caused a lot of drama. She still cared though. Which seems a lot better then the way things are now. Its so difficult to even talk to people I go to school with now because we're all branching off. I'm kind of just the one standing there, hoping everyone will come back. Rhea kind of kept us together in a way, even if not all of us liked that way she still did. Nothing seems to fit anymore. I don't really know what's happening in anyone's life, and that really does bother me. I don't feel like I belong anymore. Anywhere, its just like everyone is on some fun & amazing adventure and I'm just there, just along for the ride with no part of it on my own. I don't really feel wanted at all...
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| | Posted 10/4/2008 8:03 PM - 4 Views - 2 eProps - 2 comments
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