It would have to be hanging out with one of my many best friends, reading one of my favorite books, or talking on the phone with/getting a huge long hug from my very best friend John. Basically I just liked to get away from whatever is making me upset or really know that someone cares a lot about me.
Alright, well I'm blogging again. I don't really have anything specific but whatever. So... I'm in love with the song 'Remember when' by Alan Jackson (from the Notebook?) its so beautiful! And 'The greatest story ever told' sung by Oliver James is so incredible! And he is so amazingly good looking. Anyways, lately I've been feeling kind of melancholy. I don't really feel like I fit in with anyone right now. Everyone is so busy & so different its weird. I mean basically the only friend I see outside of school is Brittany which, don't get me wrong, I'm so happy about but I really miss seeing other people. It seems like whenever I make plans they're canceled last minute or something goes wrong or I don't even get to make plans because people are so busy. It'll be especially more so once I start working more again. 3-4 shifts a week on Sundays, Mondays and Fridays. So I will only have Saturday free on the weekend and once basketball starts I won't have any week days free except possibly Thursday right after school. I just don't know what to think about that. Not to mention this whole idea of getting out their specifically to meet new guys. I think I'm going to wait until the new year at least though. if I happen to find an awesome guy before that great for me. But if not then well then I'll put myself out there I guess. Or at least get outside more. I mean how many people can I meet just hanging out with the people I know now at school & at work? I kind of need a life. >.< Everything is so different this year with so many different people. I find that now I kind of miss Rhea. A lot in a way. I can't really explain why, I mean we are close friends but its something different then that, I don't understand it because she caused a lot of drama. She still cared though. Which seems a lot better then the way things are now. Its so difficult to even talk to people I go to school with now because we're all branching off. I'm kind of just the one standing there, hoping everyone will come back. Rhea kind of kept us together in a way, even if not all of us liked that way she still did. Nothing seems to fit anymore. I don't really know what's happening in anyone's life, and that really does bother me. I don't feel like I belong anymore. Anywhere, its just like everyone is on some fun & amazing adventure and I'm just there, just along for the ride with no part of it on my own. I don't really feel wanted at all...
Alright, well lots of things have been going on since I last posted. I just haven't been feeling it, you know? For example apparently my life is interesting enough that three more random things have subscribed to me? Well alright, hello to whoever you all are? Anyways on to more important manners. I am fed up with R. (yes, pointlessly I am going to now change every name to initials. She doesn't phone, she isn't on msn anymore, and it feels like I was pretty much used and that she really doesn't miss me, she just wants someone to feel sorry for her. I'm thinking total bull**** here. It just pisses me rank off. I mean, I don't even miss her even more. Its just kind of like, whatever almost. Okay, that isn't TOTALLY true, but for the most part. I wonder how great or close of friends we really were in the first place, which makes me kind of feel sad and gulliable. Oh and I'm not really thinking of A. in THAT way so much anymore either, good or bad I don't know. He seems to have a crush on R.F or the feminine 'A' (yeah I suck at names, so sue me. Lisa I need a good bit of nicknaming going on here), and it really doesn't bother me all that much. I'm still totally HEAD over HEELS like infatuated with J. though. He's just so godd*med sweet and funny though. Totally confuses me, apparently I confuse him too, but he'll only ever admit that when he's not thinking straight cause he doesn't like being confused about anything. But yeah, The first football game of the season was awesome. J. was so tired after it & I was cold & tired so I just cuddled with him, he didn't mind too much either. And then when we actually WON! That was fantastic!! Omgosh, I was so excited that went and I kissed him on the cheek, I mean it was just a kiss on the cheek but I was like blushing and so happy that he didn't react strangely, or at least not so I could see. Then I went and hung out with Britt & that was awesome. We went to Moxies and she came over to my house for a while & we just chilled talking & watching Jurassic park and that was cool. Then I had a free day off where 'Bekah came over and we worked on bio & I talked to J. on the phone cause he missed talking to me so we chatted for a while & that was cool. I had such a lazy day just doing those things and pigging out on chocolate and reading romance stories. Good times. But then Sunday I was feeling quite ill and I had to work a splitshift at work that only lasted like 4 hours! I was quite pissed at that but w.e. Then I'm still feeling sick now & J. told me to go home but I didn't & now I wish I would of, but I'm an independent person so I was like 'maybe' but 'HECK no!' at the same time. I mean its really sweet that he cares but I'm not going to do exactly what he tells me to do. Oh and I made the soccer team btw too, and I'm playing golf for our golf team, my first soccer game is thursday & I'm pretty pumped for that too. Go TEAM! I got my jersey #13 today. Hahaha I love being a Sr. cause that is EXACTLY my number, pretty happy about that. I would have totally b*tch slapped anyone who took my number. Its significant for me cause I've had it for like 4 years now and for like 9 teams! Oh and I got a new car today, well new for me. Its a sunfire & I don't know what to think about it exactly yet. I don't even know if its standard or automatic. >.< But anyways I'm quite overtired and a bit hungry too so I think I'll go to be now. At like 4:30 in the afternoon & take a nap. I'll post again when I feel like it. Peace out <3
Hey, my name is Megan. I'm a 19 year old writer. Well...I write but I don't get paid for it because I don't know exactly what I'm doing yet. I'm also big on sports. Extreme sports or almost any sports in general. Except I'm not flexible in a way to be a dancer, cheerleader or gymnast, that's more from me just being lazy & having no rhythm though...I also really enjoy reading, hanging out and such. I start university next year. I'm nervous tothe max. I don't know what I'm doing yet with my life and I hate leaving things to the last minute. But yeah, that's me. Well...there is also this boy but that's the story with most girls isn't it? One day I hope that we'll be together but if not, well that's life. Live, learn, love, grow.
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Totally confuses me, apparently I confuse him too, but he'll only ever admit that when he's not thinking straight cause he doesn't like being confused about anything. But yeah, The first football game of the season was awesome. J. was so tired after it & I was cold & tired so I just cuddled with him, he didn't mind too much either. And then when we actually WON! That was fantastic!! Omgosh, I was so excited that went 
and I kissed him on the cheek, I mean it was just a kiss on the cheek but I was like blushing and so happy that he didn't react strangely, or at least not so I could see. Then I went and hung out with Britt & that was awesome. We went to Moxies and she came over to my house for a while & we just chilled talking & watching Jurassic park and that was cool. Then I had a free day off where 'Bekah came over and we worked on bio & I talked to J. on the phone cause he missed talking to me
so we chatted for a while & that was cool. I had such a lazy day just doing those things and pigging out on chocolate and reading romance stories. Good times. But then Sunday I was feeling quite ill and I had to work a splitshift at work that only lasted like 4 hours! I was quite pissed at that but w.e. Then I'm still feeling sick now & J. told me to go home but I didn't & now I wish I would of, but I'm an independent person so I was like 'maybe' but 'HECK no!' at the same time. I mean its really sweet that he cares but I'm not going to do exactly what he tells me to do. Oh and I made the soccer team btw too, and I'm playing golf for our golf team, my first soccer game is thursday & I'm pretty pumped for that too. Go TEAM! I got my jersey #13 today. Hahaha I love being a Sr. cause that is EXACTLY my number, pretty happy about that. I would have totally b*tch slapped anyone who took my number. Its significant for me cause I've had it for like 4 years now and for like 9 teams! Oh and I got a new car today, well new for me. Its a sunfire & I don't know what to think about it exactly yet. I don't even know if its standard or automatic. >.< But anyways I'm quite overtired and a bit hungry too so I think I'll go to be now. At like 4:30 in the afternoon & take a nap. I'll post again when I feel like it. Peace out <3